Where Do I Start?

We are born perfect, loving, compassionate human beings. Through living a life of hurting others and being hurt we develop wounds, that if not healed correctly will fester and become infectious. My life was no exception. As a victim of sexual molestation and harassment by various men since I was about eight years old, I know first-hand the damage that can be done. My deep, embedded childhood pain had become toxic by the time I was only 12 years old.

As a victim of abuse and mistreatment, it was easier for me to justify hurting another person. As I matured I began to realize the damage to my psyche and knew that if I didn’t heal it I would have no chance of living a peaceful, happy life. I was 22 years old when I began my journey into self-discovery and healing. The next ten years were filled with wonderful miracles, including marrying the man I loved and giving birth to my two wonderful children.

I continued to heal my inner child as I raised my family and supported my husband in his endeavors. Fast forward to my forties when my children were teenagers and their father and I were divorced. It was then that I realized that I had spent my entire life trying to make other people happy, even at my own expense. I had been used and abused by so many people and had just ended a 4-year engagement. I spent the next four years learning to love myself again and how to forgive.

I was forty five years old when I finally felt healed. This was after years of therapy, educating myself on how to change my way of thinking, learning how to meditate and control my thoughts and actually putting what I learned into practice in my everyday life. It was a long, difficult process but only because I made it that way. I had a lot of forgiving of others and myself. I had no idea how to do it in the beginning. Now forgiveness is as natural to me as breathing.

There are steps to take and it is a process. How long it takes is up to each individual but we all have the ability to do it very quickly but if we are stubborn, egotistical or closed minded it will take a much longer time to learn and grow. Where it starts is with you being ready and willing to do whatever is required of you. These things will include giving up your sinful nature and saying “no” to the sins of this world. This might be an addiction or sins of the flesh. Until you are ready to let go of the demon’s hand that you’re currently holding, your life will be dark and difficult, with one challenge after another.

When loving yourself is more important than hating who you have been or what you have done, the changes will come easier. The dark shadow over your life will not be strong enough to overpower your love for yourself and others. Your life will magically change. The people that you currently find hurtful or hard to deal with will become loving, compassionate people towards you. When you change your world will change.

It is always darkest before the Dawn but there is always light at the end of the tunnel.

A good place to start is my KLOVE Challenge! Check it out....