I Just Don't Understand ~ Reading Transcript

DECEMBER 23, 2015

DAWN: Hello. I am very sorry for your loss. My hope is to bring you some peace and closure. I am in training and it helps me if you can confirm or deny things I'm getting. Sometimes it is hard for me to know who the puzzle pieces go to. If it's not immediately accurate, don't lose confidence in me, sometimes it takes time.  Is there a connection to an illness? Maybe something with lungs?

CLIENT:  Hi! And of course no problem, thank you so much for messaging me! For the illness not for my mom, possibly my grandma that passed she passed in the hospital. I don't recall exactly what was wrong but I remember her being very sick.

DAWN:  Do you have information about your mom that can be confirmed? Don't tell me details yet.....

CLIENT:  Yes some stuff at least

DAWN:  Ok good. Does she connect to a car accident?  I'm not getting much right now....it's confusing because when I look at this photo it's almost like I'm looking at myself.

CLIENT:  Yes!!! That's how she passed.

DAWN:  Did she suffer from depression?

CLIENT:  Not that I know of..but I'm sure she was very depressed for the last month or so when she was alive..

DAWN:  I am seeing her very happy but conflicted in life....does this make any sense?

CLIENT:  Very much so

DAWN:  It's like she's happy about having you but something in her life is going wrong.

CLIENT:  You’re correct. Should I give you details?

DAWN:  Go ahead and fill in some details for me please. ..it will help me understand her language.

CLIENT:  She was so excited for me, took her about 7 years to conceive, and when she finally became pregnant she found out my dad was having an affair. They broke up, worked things out and around Christmas. Broke up again because my dad didn't stop seeing the other girl who is now my brother’s mom. They were arguing over a dress I was wearing and she got upset and took off. But these are all things I’ve been told. I’ve been told so many different stories so it's hard and sucks not knowing the exact truth ?

DAWN:  I'm very sorry..... I understand. Do you need further confirmation that I've connected to your mom or would you like to ask her some questions?

CLIENT:  I believe you definitely. I guess I'm not really sure what to ask specifically I just wasn't sure if she had anything to say to me? I guess I mainly wonder if I've disappointed her in any way or if I'm doing okay in life and her thoughts on the relationship I'm in right now.

DAWN:  Here is what I am getting....she is at peace as she has crossed into the light. Now all she feels is love and understanding. All negativity is left behind when you ascend into Heaven. From there she is able to see why things happened the way they did. She understands what choices she made that allowed someone else too much control over her. She is stressing that it's important to be independent and self-reliant. Does anything I just wrote make sense? Are you taking classes for something?

CLIENT:  Yes it does and yes I'm in school on break right now.

DAWN:  She’s very proud of you. She loves you so much and is still sharing your life with you....in Spirit. Do you talk to her? She says you talk to her all the time. ..true? Many times wishing she could give you advice…

CLIENT:  I try to, yes. I wish so much I could get her advice especially now. I've been in this relationship for over 3 years and we've had many rough spots and just not sure what I should do anymore.

DAWN:  She keeps repeating "Be Independent"....I don't know exactly what that means. ....hopefully it makes sense to you.

CLIENT:  I've always been independent, but I do really love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him. I want more than ever to be a mother.

DAWN:  She says that she can hear you when you talk to her. She is so glad that you think about her and remember her because of how young you were when she passed.  Awwww.....are you young?

CLIENT:  I'm always very scared I won't be able to conceive. Always bad. It's so hard to miss someone you hardly know but I miss her more than ever. It gets harder as I get older. I just turned 22.

DAWN:  You are connected on a soul level. She will be the one to meet you when your time comes to join her in Heaven. You will see her again and you can connect to her when you want. ..you connect through feelings and thoughts of complete love. Have you lived on your own?  She says that you were the best thing that ever happened to her.

CLIENT:  Yes I moved out of my dad's when I was 16. We never got along, he's an alcoholic. Then moved in with my sister, then moved into my own place. Not long after that met my boyfriend who I've been living with ever since. I feel I never get signs to know she’s there. I've never felt a connection as it seems like some others have. Thank you so much I really do appreciate this.

DAWN:  You're welcome. She communicates as thoughts. Often times when you think about her it's because she planted that thought. Listen closely....when you randomly think of her....she is with you at that very moment. The earth won't move, the lights won't flicker.....you may or may not get chills....sometimes it is as simple and small as a thought.  What are you going to school for? Is your boyfriend as ready to start a family with you as you are with him?

CLIENT:  Criminal justice! And I think so, yes. He just says we need to wait tell were both ready when in reality everyone says you’re never ready until it just finally happens.

DAWN:  I'm going to be honest. ...I'm very new to this but not new to life. I know the advice your mom wants me to give you. I now understand why it felt like I was looking at myself. However I don't usually tell people their future or tell them things that could radically change their lives. So telling you this isn't easy....are you sure you are ready to hear it?

CLIENT:  I know there are things I'm not gonna like that are the truth. Wether I wanna hear it or not..I guess I'm as ready as I'll ever be…

DAWN:  Ok but please understand I could always be wrong....

CLIENT:  Yes I understand..

DAWN:  She says it's not necessarily that the boy isn't the right one, it's that the timing isn't right and you're trying to force something that should never be forced. Being a human on this planet is difficult enough and too often we make choices in our lives that bring us pain because our focus was on the wrong thing. Love cannot be forced and families shouldn't begin out of pressure. Your mom wishes you would take a step back. She wishes you would live on your own at least until your classes are done....that doesn't mean she wants you to leave your boyfriend. She just feels that independence will help you both and ultimately help you reach your desired goal of having a family. She says to slow down and smell the roses. I feel that she likes the man your with and agrees you need more time. She doesn't want you to repeat her mistakes. I made the very same one, which is why I feel like I'm looking at myself. Have faith that she is looking out for you from the other side. She is probably the voice of reason that you don't like to listen to. Does any of this make sense?

CLIENT:  It all makes way too much perfect sense. And we did break up recently because I wanted to go live my life. We broke up for about a week then decided to work things out. But you’re both right. It's still just hard to know what the right thing is to do.

DAWN:  You do know what the right thing is....stop over thinking. Over thinking ruins everything.

CLIENT:  So meaning maybe I should stop focusing so much of my life and time on him and go out and live life but still stay with him?  And I know I literally over think everything!

DAWN:  It's harder to do the things we are supposed to do....but it's when we do them that we experience true peace and happiness.

CLIENT:  Yea ?

DAWN:  If he won't support you being independent then he's not the one.... I just don't feel comfortable telling a complete stranger to break up a relationship they have....this is 100% your choice. Just know that the easy road usually isn't the happiest. Yes....live your life. Stop focusing on anyone other than yourself right now. ♡ When we get away of our own way and let life happen....miracles happen. Trust in your Spirit Guides....your mom is a great one.

CLIENT:  When we did break up I think a big part of the reason I stayed was because we just bought a trailer together and a puppy so it makes it a lot harder, but you’re right about forcing something that shouldn't be forced. Again thank you so much. I cant thank you enough it really means a lot to me.

DAWN:  You're very welcome. One thing I try to do is view a difficult situation in my life as an outside observer. Imagine your situation is actually a friends. Look at the choices being made, the things being said, the priorities. .....and see how it feels. You might find that a puppy, as wonderful as they are, is not a reason to be in a relationship. Just be sure to make your choices with care..... no one is a bad guy because something doesn’t work. Often it is timing. If you do go your separate ways, do it with love and grace....and make sure you find the puppy a good home if you choose not to keep him. Is there anything else you would like to ask or say?  Sorry. ...I'm a mom too...so you're getting a double dose of "Mom advice" this morning. Your mom is very wise....you can trust that she only has your happiness at heart. ♡♡

CLIENT:  Don't be sorry, I'm very grateful for the advice. I'd do anything to get my mom's advice honestly. Sometimes I feel so alone in this world and I absolutely hate it. I just still will never understand why things had to happen this way with after her passing and my dad has never really been a dad to me. I feel he sees my mom in me and he blames himself. So I feel he takes it out on me. But I guess life works in mysterious ways that no one will ever understand. One last thing, since I don't know much about her passing, besides the accident did it have something to do with her lungs? I figured since that was one of the first things you mentioned if that had something to do with her.

DAWN:  I'm not sure.....I definitely got lungs or chest but that could just mean that she sustained an injury there during the accident. ...

CLIENT:  Oh okay. Just thought I'd ask. God bless you for being able to help others.

DAWN:  Sometimes they show me the actual cause of thier passing along with the event.

CLIENT:  Is that how you knew it was a car accident?

DAWN:  Thank you. Did you enjoy your reading? Did you bring you a little sense of peace? Yes....she told me it was a car accident.

CLIENT:  Yea it did help a little, I don't think I'll ever be at peace with her passing, but any connection I'm able to get with her helps so much. I've just recently been trying so hard. But I definitely enjoyed every second of the reading. Let me know if you need me to leave you any feedback or anything on that site!

DAWN:  I'm glad. I would greatly appreciate it if you would take a minute and post something about your reading.

CLIENT:  I definitely will. I'm at work so just give me a sec but promise I will!

DAWN: Thank you. The best gift you can give your mom is to live your life to the fullest. Things will make more sense as time goes on and you experience life. Happy holidays to you. Love and light. ♡

CLIENT:  Happy holidays to you as well ?